| | Spoke to my dad today. He told me he had a beer the other night, which
positively crushed me, since he's got a couple of years of sobriety
under his belt. Not to mention the fact that I can't abide him when
he's drunk. At least he owned up to it, and he said he's going "back on
the wagon" or whatever. *sigh* I don't know what to think. It was just
a rough day all around. He just so pushes my buttons... I don't know
why I let him. We were estranged for so long... but now I'm totally
re-invested. I really should have know better than to jump back in head
first with him.
I really just wish I could have a normal
relationship with SOMEONE in my goddamned family. My grandparents were
essentially forced to be my parents, I feel like I've had to parent my
parents for as long as I can remember (when I'm speaking to them at
all), and my siblings (both older than me) have never in my entire life
been there for me on an unselfish or emotional level. That's why I
strive to have a "normal" relationship in my marriage & parenting.
I can't bear the thought of screwing them up as much as my extended
family has done me. |
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